" it's something unpredictable.. but in the end it's right- i hope you had the time of your life"

i don't know why I want to make him jealous..

 

i guess- i just never had the chance to get over him.

 

he's always in my mind.

 

our relationship was so good- and yet- something went wrong.. I just don't know what it was.

 

I'm not going overseas anymore.. I'm staying right here- and now we're going to be staring into each other's faces whilst dealing with this pain.

 

Gosh.. love is complicated.

Listening to: Damion Rice

 

Hahahahahaha!! I'm head over heals in love!

Listening to: Shu- Coccoon

 

I have been 18 for a whole day and I just can't believe how great it feels! I have been partying for the past 24 hours in non-stop mode and I feel like passing out any second now. Tonight we are going to be celebrating once again!!

 

I have this weird  feeling in my stomach.. i don't know if it's just my hangover speaking... or if I'm actually getting this nostalgic flashback of something I have experienced before but I think I'm in love again.I know- it's so fast and irradical- but what started out as a fling over easter weekend developed into something much deeper and now my world can't stop spinning. I've never had a friendship with someone so upredictable and funny in my life!It's based on the randomnest conversations ever!

 

Maybe single life isn't all that it's cut out to be.. I think I have entered a new realm of understanding on this aspect- and if this does turn into a relationship I won't mind at all.

 

I'm off to bed now! Recooperating before tonights party starts again..

 

 

Listening to: Black Sabbath- Paranoid

 

So- it's my birthday today. And I am offcially 18- and legal (to do almost anything I like in this country). Yay for me! My day was extremely awesome. Bennie (metal- fling-boy..) gave me an extremely large smooooch and i got the coolest digital camera...heehee- I'm happy about both!!

 

So much happened- but I will post a larger blog later.. as this is just an update. The real partying only starts tomorrow- although I'm already smashed on some cheap red wine now as a result of my father's "Education plan" for my 18th birthday when we went out for dinner earlier this evening. According to him- I have never experienced alcahol to it's fullest- so tonight was my chance... hahahaha!!

 

So cheers to the start of my adult life.. it feels like it's started off great already!!

 

 

Oh.. and I have finally decided to pursue a career in the film industry... KACHING!!!

 

Toodles.

Listening to : Black Sabbath

 

Okay- so life has been extremely good the past few weeks.

I've met the most awesome guy ever and I'm enjoying all the little, cute things people enjoy when they just start off with a relationship- like the constant messages and butterfly-inducing kisses and all that stuff! He plays for a heavy metal band and works in a video store- thats all he does??! And it doesn't bother me- because for some or other reason- his lack of ambition turns me on. It could probably be because I'm used to dating all these really ambitious guys.. I mean- you have to vary your taste sometimes don't you?

 

We got together over Easter-weekend- there was a party at his house- and although I've known him for quite a while, I only realized the chemistry between us was ridiculously high when we started pouring the vodka.. why does vodka always do weird things to you? But it's cool- I love talking to this guy. Thats like all we do.We go to Zeplins and headbang ourselves into a stupor on Pantera or Dimmu Borgir or we watch stupid episodes of Metalocalypse at his house. It seriously is so simple- but yet so great!!

 

I have to start revising for my exams which are coming up in a month.. I'm already stressing. I just can't seem to concentrate for more than 2 seconds at once. My mind is just one huge whirlwind.

 

I have to leave now,need to go for driving lessons (yes, I got my learner's permit!). So Im driving up and down in our neighbourhood's main street, trying to alternate my co-ordination between the clutch and the gas.. I'm all hard-core!!

 

Cheers.

Listening to- Necromantix...once again

 

Ek kan myself nou regtig nie in Engels express nie- ek is way te dronk daarvoor! So "here's to" my eerste afrikaanse blog- wat niemand gaan verstaan nie (maar dis ook okay).

 

Hierdie afgelope naweek was- helemal insane. Was dronk op papsak van vrydag middag af tot nou toe met my papsak-buddy Monique en haar pelle. Ek het gefilosofiseer oor die ability van mans as dit kom by sexual pleasure en of hulle weet wanneer om te stop; ek het helemal te veel gebraai en wors geeet en ek het geleer hoe dit voel om intiem te word op heavy metal musiek 5uur die oggend. Volgens my was dit 'n heel voldoende naweek.Toe ek weer sien toe sit ek 1uur vanmiddag in Pretoria se Botaniese tuine en kyk randomly na bome.

 

Ek het uiteindelik die stap gevat wat ek die meeste gevrees het- die een waar ek oor Riaan kom. En ek voel heel trots op myself. Dit was lekker ook.. maar ek glo nie ek gaan nou in details gaan nie- eks nie nugter nie... of dalk is ek net nie dronk genoeg nie??

 

Ek het ook die naweek geleer dat vriendskap baie belangriker as enige ou is en dat ek dalk in die verlede vriendskap vir granted gevat het.. ek voel my uitkyk op die lewe het heel volledig verander in die afgelope 3weke van single wees! En ek hou daarvan...

 

Maar nou ja- eks honger en moer moeg. Ek het absoluut fokkol geslaap die naweek en ek dink dis tyd om bietjie te gaan vermiste slaappatrone herstel nou.

 

 

 

Listening to: FFF- Tonight we die

 

It's official.

 

Riaan and I broke up. I expected it to be much worse than it actually is. We both just went our seperate ways and we ended it on a good note.

 

I still have a little bit of an aching heart- but it'll pass. And I'll live. I just can't believe it's over..

 

"Why did you come here tonight? Everything is so loud.."

Listening to:The Misfits- Halloween

 

I haven't blogged in ages- my apologies.. School has been keeping me really occupied.

 

This is just a random photo I want to share with you which I took at a party a few months ago. I accidentally caught a bottle of tequila in mid-air on my photo- and I thought maybe some of you guys will enjoy this. Check the guy's expression!!

 

 

Later days..

Listenig  to: Max Normal- When you do that

 

I have nothing new to say, except that I am extremely busy.

 

I wish I could morph into a giraffe and gallavant off into the sunset in the Serengeti or some shit.

 

Or a whole lot of tequila could work too...

One day Alice came to a fork in the road and saw a Cheshire cat in a tree.

"Which road do I take?"she asked.

"Where do you want to go?" was his response.

"I don't know.." Alice answered.

"Then," said the cat, "it doesn't matter. "

-Lewis Carroll